so basically, school and field hockey are my life. i dont really mind, its what i signed up for. i mean i could be in another language. i could be in non-honors. i could be on jv. i dont regret this. but its hard. i'm not feeling well,and i havent gotten more than 6 hours of sleep a night all week. i had to start my homework today at noon when i finally felt that it was possible. but i couldnt concentrate long enough to keep going. so i'm writing in here.
i've been thinking a lot about regret lately. for a while i thought i made a huge mistake. people would tell me all the time what a mistake it was. but thinking back, i wouldnt change what i did for the world. i had fun. i learned a lot. if i had a time machine i'd go back a relive the many amazing moments it brought.
now, theres a second mistake relating to the first. after a lot of thought about recent events, i've decided regretting my decision wont make the situation any more clear. what i did may have caused it, but theres no tangible evidence suggesting it. i just have a guilty conscience that might be on for no reason. i'm just glad i have smart friends.
if that made ANY sense to you, then congrats. lets talk.
lately my emotions have been going up and down like a rollercoaster. one day i'm happy then i fail an assignment or get no sleep and i'm a wreck all over. gahh! but after finally talking with josh and nina and my dad and katie and jordyn and mckenna and anna and *nacho and haley i feel 103409583485983405 times better. i do have people i can trust, and with being all cought up in high school i dont give a lot of my friends enough credit. i need to call nolan.
so i'm trying not to worry. i'll get what i need done, and i dont have to get all A's this semester. ( lets see how long this lasts)
i can never make up my mind. should i learn how? i actually kind of like the disability.
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i think i'm one of those smart friends.
i know how u feel...but all u can do is keep on trying your hardest and have fun at the same time, and i think things will work out. and the season is ALMOST over (kinda) but we got this =]
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remember who you said you hate?
just.. yea. it's funny.
oh, for latin, um, i need to know the latin word for "generic". what declension is it in?
you're welcome.
your entry honestly just shed some light on my own situations, also i feel less alone. Thank you.
I was mentioned! I'm glad that I helped. You helped me feel better to. It seems we're all stuck in the past and full of regret. How'd you turn yourself around so quickly? I NEED YOUR PSYCHONALYSIST!
That did make sense to me btw.
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