muscle weighs more than fat

for the past year it has been my goal to get good at field hockey. parts of that goal included not sucking at futures, being able to hit the ball consistantly, and making varsity this year. its the one goal that i feel i've really had to work the hardest to achieve . and i'm trying not to brag, but i'm so incredibly happy to be on the varsity team as a freshman. only a few people know how badly i wanted this. i feel like its finally MY sport. something i can be known for being good at. i'm building the endurance for it, i have the agilty and right body type. my competitiveness is extreme, and i work through pain. for the past couple weeks, we've been having 2-a-day tryouts from 8-10:15 and 4-6:15. from day 2 we began running "long king" which is only about 2 1/2 miles, maybe a little more ( i was lied to by some upper classman last year who said it was like 4). nonetheless, it includes hills and really hurts the first couple times you run it. i was determined to be at the front of the pack. of course, there was no way i was going to be ahead of marcia silvera, that beast, but the first day i came in about 9th place. each day we ran and it got easier and easier until the last time we ran it i came in 5th! you need to understand that the people ahead of me are basically amazing. like marcia and miranda and katie and elizabeth were always first. always. tom and erin( the coaches ) must have noticed that, right? well that last day tom also noticed my middlebury FH shirt i was wearing and started up our first conversation. it was short lived considering i havent been to the camp YET, but it was something. i worked hard, i sweat a lot, and improved my stick work in a weeks time. one day after practice erin got a group of about 7 of us together and told us we were in "the bubble". the bubble was the group of people who they werent sure whether to put on jv or varisty. she told us that in order to convince them that we deserved/wanted it, we would have to work out butts off monday and tuesday. i took that very seriously. i did my best to stick with the returning varsity players. i did what i was told and made lots of eye contact. i ran and ran and ran even on my shitty old pair of softball cleats that were two sizes too small and gave me a deep blister on my heal that steve had to keep wrapping. then the other day we ran the glazier way run. before we ran it erin told us about a hill at the end. she said those of you who want to be like marcia and run it can, but you dont have to. you can just turn around and run back the way u came. i didnt plan on running the hill, but once i got there i realized it was my chance to prove it to them. SO i ran it. i didnt die, and i didnt come in last place either. i came back smiling annd told her that the hill was steeper then it looked, and took a walk with josh. then we scrimmaged and i was placed with the varsity girls. but the thing is they kept moving me from the jv group to the varsity group, so i'd come home every night really confused or in a really good or bad mood. sorry to anyone who i was a bitch to.. especially one person who knows who he is. but the last day we had a scrimage with all of the bubble people. i saw erin watching so i yelled a lot, moved to spaces a lot, and played defense that i didnt even know i could do! then i told elie i wanted to switch it up and played forward for a while. then ms. ficks came over and they talked for a while and then told me to switch to the varsity group. i was so excited that i forgot to take my pinny (sp?) off and looked like a loser running back to give it to anica. and blah blah blah OH then we did this drill and erin was like get a partner whos about ur skill level. and marcia picked me! i was like..are we the same skill level? and she said when it came to stick work yes. then just more drills and such.

i've written way too much and left out a ton. like we had a team brunch at marcia's house that was pretty cool and one day we had an indoor practice and i slept and didnt eat before i came so i basically almost passed out and the new freshman are really sweet . annie upton and julia butz are cool, and carly is quiet, but nice. first tournament saturday and a home game on tuesday at 430 that YOU SHOULD ALL COME TO. even if i end up being a bench warmer.

as for the title, you should just ask me via aim/phone if you want to know.


EDIT-- i just realized i never wrote anything about blue lake or up north. oops. it was fun. i learned a lot. i was in the SSA choir and made a couple of friends. i ripped my favorite pair of jeans. i saw elie piper in glan arbor and julia piper in the blue lake international choir. no longer will i make fun of blue lake goers. but i wont go back next year. too much to do and only 4 summers left to do them in.

school in 2 weeks. am i ready?